Christmas Low
My Christmas didn’t quite go as planned. In fact, I’m swirling in the aftermath and feeling pretty low.
This is my favorite holiday. I love gathering and watching those I love open gifts I picked out especially for them, and seeing what everyone else received. As I looked through the pictures we took today, there were too many frowns on too many faces and broken hearts etched on their chests.
Every year there is one gift I choose that keeps me excited and counting down the days until Christmas. This year it was a recipe book I made from my Grandmother’s old metal box of index cards.
I spent a ridiculous amount of time preparing it and then had it printed for a few family members who I knew would treasure the memories it represented. Only today’s misfortune overshadowed any gifts that were given.
The day has made me regretful, tearful, confused and mostly sad.
The wrapping paper is in the trash, the wonderful gifts are put away and I should probably just forget about what happened, but I can’t. My feelings are hurt and I’m feeling pretty down.
I am technically on vacation until January 7th, so I’m going to take a break from here as well. It’s almost been a year since I started this blog and it has been a wonderful journal that has allowed me to express things I can’t say in real life.
Thank you for listening. I’ll be back soon…
I’m sorry there was misfortune and it spoiled the day.
Enjoy your vacation and congrats on the near-year.
Julie
Using My Words
Emily, I’m so sorry that your day didn’t go as planned. I hate that when it happens. Try to just relax.
Oh Emily, I’m so sorry to read this. I don’t know what happened, obviously, but I hope you feel better soon. 12/26 depression is so real. (((((((((hugs to you))))))))))))))))
oh sister…am thinking of you.
Hoping everything is okay…
I am so sorry, sweetheart.
I think the recipe book sounds amazing. It’s a great idea. I’m sorry something happened to usurp what should have been a happy happy day.
Have a good vacation. I’ll look forward to your return
Aw, I’m so sorry to hear that. I hope you enjoy your time off!
Oh Emily- I am so sorry to hear something dampened your Christmas. I hope it is a small bump in the road and that your feelings are on the mend. Looking foward to your return in the new year. Have a lovely break and get that spirit on the mend….
It’s almost impossible to explain how many of us take months of mental preparation to make Christmas special. Then we take pains in making the plans come true. When they are changed or not appreciated it makes you wonder why you do them only to be disappointed? Do them becasue it’s the right thing to do. If there is one
person you were able to bring joy too..you’ve succeeded..and don’t forget yourself.
For anyone who tried to bring your celebration down, remember the sadness they must continually feel by not being able to live and love life. You seem to have an amazing ability to move forward no matter what. And if you think for a moment there will be something you learned, which you will share. The reason for your sometimes sad journey… ponder, lament, and go forward.
We think highly of you..and always learn something new from your post. Thanks for being there.
Dorothy from grammology
remember to call gram
I’m so sorry. That really sucks.
I’m so sorry. i don’t know what happened but we had some issues around my b-day and mothers day (which were the same last year) and it totally ruined it for me and I don’t even want to celebrate them ever again. So, I can relate to how you feel.
I’m sorry Christmas has left you feeling so low. Between that and your recovery, you’re not having a very good month, are you? Hopefully, things will improve, or at least suck less, with time.
And as for taking a break, I understand… we’ll be here when you get back. Take care.
Oh! Fen! I’m so sorry. I hope you feel better soon and that New Year’s is happy for you. Come back soon. We’ll miss you. xoxo
Emily, so sorry that the day let you down.
Hugs and prayers,
Karla
I’m sorry about whatever caused this. After what you have been through, this should have been special and relaxing and caring and warm and … and … you know…all of that. Sorry it didn’t work out like that. HUGS
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Sending you a huge cyberhug…hon, I’m in the same boat with ya.
I’m so sorry you also had a not so spectacular Christmas. It hurts, it sucks and it blows.
I don’t know what happened and I have yet to share what happened at my house but here’s hoping that 2008 smiles on us cause 2007 is going down in my house as one great big bucket of suck!
{{{{Emily}}}}